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you know i thought i was through with crying about striping. but then i read michelle's blog. i read our batch letters. i read all the letters from everyone. and i realised i wasn't. i never thought i would miss it so much. after seoul garden on friday night, michelle and i were rather emotionless. maybe it was because we didnt want friday to feel any different from thursday. but well we're CLs no more ):

i think goodness i'm going to print all the entries about striping out!

aileen's letter:
Hey you guys.I just got through reading all my notes... and I cried even though I didn't during striping. I guess it's only when I read "it's finally striping 06!" ten thousand times that I finally realised... and it finally sunk in that our term has come to an end - our batch is no longer a present part of rgguides. I felt really touched by all your notes - and they were all very very very sweet. ahahah you guys described me in such a positive light. You guys mostly said that you were thankful for me being that high loud presence - but what you might not know is that I'm only like that when you guys are around.YOU MAKE IT SO.You make it possible.You are the ones who make it possible for me to go through these 4 years, rural hike, open house, cca o, AA!!!, urban hike, interugday... etc. YOU ARE THE ONES WHO ALLOW ME TO SMILE MY WAY THROUGH ALL THE HARDSHIPS AND TRIBULATIONS WE WENT THROUGH.

by the way.THANK YOU RAIN. You just had to make your presence felt today.Batch06 you thank me for being positive. But the truth is that I have to thank YOU GUYS for being the ones who bring that smile to my face. THANKYOU FOR THESE FOUR YEARS OF MADNESS, HIGHNESS, LOVE LOVE AND ALOT OF LOVE!If I had a choice - I would go through all these again. But what Krystal told me is right - it'll never be the same even if we turned back time. and Athena said we should not cry because it's ended, we should smile because it happened - and that's right too. But it's so hard to think to know that we no longer have this time together on wednesdays and fridays. I will miss the guides table, the guides room, the roll call, everything and anything and most of all YOU GUYS BATCH06! If I ever had another chance I would not want to miss getting to know you guys for anything in the world. You are such a big part of my life - if I can say it -

YOU GIVE ME MY STRENGTH. Hey you guys. Thank you so much... I'll never to able to repay you guys.I just hope we can retain this friendships that we have forged - through all the tough times - I will NEVER forget how we bonded through rushing to prepare the campfire in the hall, how me and cherylwong GONGGIL was quite quite lost at MCing at first. How Yijun and I listened to that talk by Yiwen backstage before AA and I felt like crying. How you sang rising sun with me backstage, GONGGIL!!!! hahaha! How me and sarah always walk about aimlessly at orchard hoho. How we argued and cursed ronaldo KRYSTAL! How we prepared for PGA - so hard so irritating so fulfilling to have done all that together. And now best of luck to the 5 candidates remaining - GOOD LUCK!!! : DDDDDDDDHow everything happened seems so fast - everything's in a blur. I think the entire reality of a life without you my dearest BATCH06 has not sunk in yet. All I can hope for is that we keep these bonds. (((: ahhaah COH was funny. And michelle your note about COH was funny yes it's extremely typical of our batch. Ahahah I really want you guys to know that everything I could do in guides is all due to your presence. Guides has been what I had always looked forward to in a week. EVERYWEEK. Now I don't know how I can live without it. Live without you guys ahaha! Live without blowing at michelle and yijun. (: I know life goes on. And this part of my life may have come to an end, but I want you guys to know that the memories will always remain in the centre of my heart.

cherylw's:

and yeah i think i'll really miss the CLs standing up there screaming at the PLs to fall in in a straight line, and always saying "by now we should not be reminding you to be standing in a straight line", but haha actually i think till now, we still can't do so. XD! i'll miss listening to aileen, krystal, athena and giraffe time as we form horseshoes, how each of them fade away and how another takes over. i'll miss seeing you guys at the guides table just before guides and settling down there. i'll miss going home with weixian, and going somewhere with giraffe and tammie. i'll miss gay-ing around with aileen THE KING and harmonising with charmaine and krystal! i'll miss yijun "HOI-ing" at us when we dont do as she pleases,listening to michelle's airy voice, and athena doing funny and unexpected things. andd many moreee! andd izza my darling PS, odeliaa the patient saint and AHHH..etc.etc.

hmm i have too many things to say but i just can't seem to say it now, but thank you all for your letters, they are all about "let's go to kbox soon" and stuff like that XD, and sarahh, you called me cassandra angeline taylor in my letter i wanted to faint. that's giraffe, jang seng! XD yeahh and thanks for putting me in such a good light (as aileen said), it was a major ego boost and i was smiling throughout, until i reached the end, then i broke down into tears.

you guys sang super well today, i'm so proud of you, after numerous attempts at singing, we've finally did it. our batch can sing!!

and without you all i'm going to be is incomplete.*

krystal's:

"she's so lucky, she's a starbut she cry cry cries in her lonely heart thinkingif there's nothing missing in my life,then why do these tears come at night"thank you for being what was missing in my life. my life would not have been complete without you. even though now the tears still come, they are tears of love, joy, and gratitude. thank you batch'06.

and GIRAFFE LOVER'S <3 WHICH MADE ME CRY THE MOST.

ohno everyone i think we're having sec four guides withdrawal symptoms x.x we'll all dehydrate thanks to all the tears we've shed. i just want to thank everybody everybody! for making these four years so memorable. from rural hike (i think that's like THE starting point of everything) to open house to ccao to striping last year to camp to AA to PGA to urban hike to striping farewell!

i just wanted to say i never started peeling oranges with my bare hands until rural hike at the orange station, but now i peel them all the time.

i never found bedsheeting folding and jam cooking and washing shoes so enjoyable and fun until i did them with you all for homemaker's badge.

i never knew i can listen to a song and dance so many times without getting sick of the song - just because i'm dancing with you people.

i never knew roll call could be so painfully agonizing trying not to laugh listening to the first coy PLs being niao-ed at by jiaying not to laugh and tuck in your shirts and pull up your socks and looking at michelle with her funny face taking attendance and yijun always walking around singing jj's songs for some funny reason.

i never knew i could feel so lost just without anyone of you. when the evil insect bit yijun during camp and made you cry so terribly i just cried too it was so terrible. and i never could have survived camp without all of you, everyone staying up so late and waking up so early to make breakfast.

i never knew doing proposals were so exciting, and i never opened my gmail the first thing when i got home, until we started planning rural hike.

i never found firelighting and tent-pitching and emergency shelter and rope ladder building and pioneering so accomplishing until we all passed pioneer badge together.

i never found banner painting and structure tying so enjoyable, until i did it with you all.

i never knew the guides room was so lovable until i became qm with krystal and athena and the three of us shortened our lifespan inside the fumigated room by twenty years.

i never knew guides songs could be so touching until i sang it with you all.

i never knew i could cry singing a song, until i was singing with you all.

i never knew guides sessions could be so fun, i never knew footdrill could be so exciting.

i never knew i loved you all so much. but now i know.

thankyou each and every single one of you for everything you've done. it is you all who make guides what it is - one big family full of love, fun, happiness, and, of course, rain. and i'm thankful for every single one of you, all the love, and for every single drop of rain which made us who we are today.

LOVE batch '06.


AND ATHENA'S:

when i first became a guide in sec1, i was thinking, "oh my god, wat madness made me sign up for this?" in sec2, i was thinking, "i still think i should have joined another cca." in sec3, i was thinking,"this batch is getting better than i thought, although some ppl might be a little retarded. i'm beginning to love the ppl here."

in sec4, i'm thinking, "has it already been 4 years? but i really love these ppl as retarded as they may be, as uncoordinated they may be, i don't want to leave them. they gave me the support and encouragement when i most needed it. they were there to catch my fall, they were there to make me smile. to make me cry.. they created the most unforgettable memories for me, they made me smile the most, some of them were those who i could trust with my life. they had the faith in me to make them look glam on AA. these ppl were who i called true friends, friends who gave me the confidence to do things i never thought i would, i was allowed to be myself around them. i always thought that crying during singing was wimpy, only when i sang with them, that was when i realised why ppl cried. it never occured to me that i would miss them so much, it never occured to me that i would come to love them so much. but now that i do, i don't wanna leave them, they were the best thing that happened to me. " struture tying, firelighting, outdoor cooking, pioneering, making jam, making beds, sewing, and everything that we did in guides, never seemed so fun until i did it with you all.. you all made everything seemed fun.. because we did it as a batch. the batch would not have been complete without each one of you, it would not have been as special. like i said, 19 unique individuals, one very special batch. so till today, i thank my lucky stars that i have all of you, thanks to everyone for everything that you have done. its thanks to you that i have such huge family.. one that i can share my tears and my smiles with. we managed to pull of all the challenges that we were put through, TOGETHER. all that matters is that we did it as a batch. it never mattered that we had our aa in the hall, or that it rained during our campfire, or that we had our rural hike in the rain, or that it rained during our striping, all that matters is that we were there for each other, there as a batch to pick each other up. so quoting the wise words of giraffe low ying ling, "i never knew i loved you all so much. but now i know." i will never be able to forget the times that we shared.. i never knew that you all meant so much to me, that i loved you all so much, but after this, i do. THANKS SO MUCH BATCH'06! you all are the sweetest and bestest batchmates qone could ever ask for! loving you all always! <333 THE HOTTEST CHICKS EVER!!!





i really don't know what to say. but i'll miss all of you. each and every single one of you. ): and i'll miss guides. i'll miss going down to the guides table every wednesday and friday. i'll miss everything i did with michelle as CLs. because michelle tan you were the only one who could possibly understand, because you went through the exact same thing as i did.

and i'll miss all the random tags from all the guides at the tagboards YOU ALL MUST CONSTANTLY COME AND GIVE ME TAGS OKAY ):

and i think this year as a CL i learnt more than i had ever learnt in my entire life. i learnt that life isn't always fair, and the best doesn't always win. i learnt about fighting. and being resilient even when no one thought that we could make it. i learn about loving what i do and loving the people i did everything for. ALL YOU GUIDES BETTER APPRECIATE IT OKAY. and never ever say you hate guides because that's the one thing that michelle and i hate hearing/ seeing on blogs because we really worked very hard for everyone, especially the SEC TWOS okay.

haha and i never knew i could work so closely with one person aka MICHELLETANHUITENG and not get sick of seeing her/ hearing her voice. THOUGH I GOT SICK OF HER NAGGING hahaa!

and if you want to know how we feel about each batch i think michelle's blog would do fine. because i feel the exact same thing.

sec ones even though we spent the shortest time with you. as michelle says, there will always be this special place in our hearts just for you, because YOU WERE OUR SEC ONES.

sec twos CONTINUE TO WORK HARD. AND MICHELLE AND I WILL ALWAYS BE HERE FOR YOU.

sec three's it's your stage. (funny i remember how we were being told this last year).

sec fours. I LOVE YOU. eight letters. three words. one meaning.

I LOVE YOU GUIDES. even though you consumed my life for a long long while. even though you made me cry buckets and buckets and almost waterfalls of tears! but without GUIDES <3 i would never had gotten to know 126 people. ONE HUNDRED AND TWENTY SIX more friends i made because of guides.

because without guides i would never have found out my strengths and weaknesses properly. without guides, i would never have learnt so many life lessons that are just impossible to get from books.

I WILL MISS YOU GUIDES. I WILL MISS BLOGGING ABOUT GUIDES. I WILL MISS BLOG HOPPING AND FINDING OUT HOW THE GUIDES FELT ABOUT THE GUIDES SESSION THAT DAY! I WILL MISS GUIDES TAGGING AT MY TAGBOARD! ): so now i shall reply to tags from all the guides! the telephone! HAHAA okay you don't really count as a guide but well you're guides related! I LOVE YOU <3><

lingmin! well at least you're going for guides next week! I'LL GO BACK AND GIVE YOU A HUG DARLING <3

anonymous! HMM i'm glad my letter made an impact! when i come for guides and visit you all and you see me you can give me a beeg wave and a beeeg smile okay (:

lynnette (: yes CONTINUE TO MAKE DOVE THE BEST BEST PATROL OKAY <33

YILIN (: yes good girl promise to do your best (: and i'll miss you too! and whenever you feel tired of everything or you feel like giving up ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS GIVE ME A TAG/ CALL/ SMS and i'll tell you one hundred reasons why you should ALWAYS LOVE GUIDES and never let the workload turn you off (:

vinna. WO YE HEN AI NI <3 yes and i KNOW that you and bocks will make me proud!

junyi (: THANK YOU (: i'll miss everyone loads too! and you too! HAHAA and i'll remember that you owe me a present :D

michelle tan NEED I SAY MORE. THE PARAGRAPH WAS LONGGGGGG ENOUGH <3

shimin! hello darling (: yupp don't be so sad about changing patrols YOU CAN ALWAYS COMBINE PATROLS (: JIAYOU (:

and haha BOB! you know I LOVE YOU. and i must really really thank you for listening to me complain and complain and complain about everything haha and for us asking you all sorts of funny questions like how to make our guides more disciplined and stuff and for being such a nice person to lean on and hug!

and JOLYNKHOO i love you too darling (: haha you must have been the non-guides person who heard most of my grievances and musings! THANK YOU FOR ALWAYS BEING THERE FOR ME WHEN I NEEDED YOU (:

and jiakang too haha! <3!

ohno i'll really feel so sad if i have no more guide-y tags to reply ):

hmm i figured i shall blog about striping now if not i'll never get down to it.

well i shall just describe yesterday first. the whole day i didnt feel anything. nothing at all, even when i was writing all my farewell notes and stuff. even when i said 'guides fall in' for the last time and everything. until the striping ceremony.

when names were called out, people were striped, i still didnt feel like crying. until i striped becky. THIRD COY DO YOU KNOW HOW PROUD I AM OF YOU. WE PRODUCED TWO CLS YOU KNOW. TWO! AND MY ENTIRE COH CAME OUT IN THE EXACT WAY I WANTED. SO I'M THANKFUL FOR THAT. third coy thank you for being such wonderful capable people (:

and then as i was striping becky. i remembered everything that cherie told me last year. then i started tearing as i was telling her everything. and next to me i could hear isabelle crying really badly.

and then after they went back isa fell out of the horseshoe. and as i hugged her and she cried i cried even more. because i could really sense how much she didnt want to leave third coy. but isa as i told you. you don't know how proud i am of you!

and then everyone else got striped and they got rid of aqms and asecs and i was so annoyed you know! DO YOU KNOW HOW MANY MORE OF MY BELOVED SEC TWOS COULD HAVE GOTTEN POSTS. hmphh.

and i didn't cry as much as i thought i would. i cried for a lot of reasons though. because i am leaving, because isa cry until so can3. and the last one which made me cry the most. because wo bu gan xin. as i screamed and screamed it into giraffe's shoulder in the canteen yesterday. THANK YOU DARLING. <3><.

and then presents haha i had a humongous haul and i'll give shoutouts later! and then performances <3!

sec ones THANK YOU FOR YOUR DANCE YOU ALL LOOKED REALLY CUTE.

sec twos THANK YOU FOR BONDING. <3 THAT WAS THE BIGGEST PRESENT YOU COULD HAVE GIVEN ME but continue to bond even more! AND THANK YOU FOR THE PRETTY MIRROR <3!

sec threes. OMG i felt like michelle and i were getting married. i think this will be the most memorable goh i walk through! and thank you so much darlings. for everyone else's info the sec threes made goh for us to march through, and at the end of it was a FIVE KG HUMONGOUS YUMMY CHOCOLATE CAKE thank you THOMAS <3

sec fours. YAYY we fulfilled out dream of harmonising I LOVE YOU BATCH 06. THE SHOUTOUT'S BELOW!

and haha i will blog about dinner another time la!




i never thought it would come so soon. i remember how we started counting down from eleven months ago. that was when we dreaded guides. HATED guides even. and then at seven months ago we stopped. we really faced lots of problems and i would have not been able to stand it if not for MICHELLE YIWEN MEL AND JO AND BATCH 06.

and it seemed like only not too long ago when we stepped up. and i cried at last year's striping when her name was announced and i knew i was stuck with her for one year. when hannah was leaving and i didnt want her to. when i had to leave swallow and i didn't want to. and it never occured to me that our time would come so soon.

and when we stepped up we knew the journey would be tough. but i never knew just how tough it would be. from planning schedules which was the bane of our existence, to bothering about each batches' progress, to settling all sorts of minor stuff, to thinking how to make guides more interesting, to finding ways to make our guides more disciplined and everything. we knew it wouldnt be easy. we knew it would be hard because everyone never thought highly of our batch.

and now as michelle has said. when people say stuff about guides and everything i get very affected. my day brightens up when i hear someone say she loves guides, or that guides has become better this year, and likewise i would feel sad if someone said she hated guides. but i learnt that we can never please everyone, and as jo told me, if everyone is happy, you're doing something wrong. because liang yao ku kou.

ohno this post is super fragmented. i'm sorry!

and there were MANY MANY MANY times that i felt like giving up. when i couldnt stand it anymore. but thank you to everyone who walked this road with me.

and thank you to everyone for all your letters and presents! the letters really mean so much. i don't know whether you all are saying that like as normal things you say every striping, like 'the year's been great' and stuff like that, but IT REALLY MEANS A LOT. so thank you, even if you tell the CLs that every year. and i was reading all the notes and michelle's <3 was the only one that made me tear.

MICHELLE TAN HUITENG. you know darling, I REALLY LOVE YOU MORE THAN WORDS CAN SAY. after you've read my letter to you, you'll know it. one <3 for everyday that we've been CLs. all there for you. and yupp we're hardly similar at all. but i think the only right thing they did was to put us together. BECAUSE HOW OFTEN CAN TWO PEOPLE SURVIVE THE YEAR DOING THE JOB OF THREE PEOPLE! and thank you for walking this whole road with me. through laughter, through tears, through joys, through everything. and i remember how from the moment we called yiwen last year, when we cried until two am in your house. just the two of us feeling very fed up with everything. at the chalet where i thanked god when you came and just hugged you. where we sat at the staircase crying until 6 am in the morning and being glad that we had each other. when we had the big big big big problem which seemed the world then. when they made all the empty promises to give us hope only to shatter it so soon. when i would call you/yiwen in the middle of the night and cry and scream and shout on the phone for hours. i think this whole episode has made me a much stronger person. i hated her. and yes i still do. but thank you MICHELLE TAN THANK YOU TEH YIWEN for helping me pull through this one year <3!and i think i will never forget the day after camp when we yelled at each other in your car and ended up in tears. because that showed me how different we really are. and thank god it never happened again. i'm going to miss saying 'we' and have it mean me and you. as the whole entry above means. i'm going to miss all the phone calls with you. it's going to feel very uneasy without calling you almost everyday. i'm going to miss the so many sleepovers i had at your house! I WOULD NEVER HAVE WANTED TO BE A CL WITH ANYONE BUT YOU. and thank you for standing by me! through the TEARS especially. ohmygod i think you've probably seen me cry more than anyone else in my entire life. at the chalet, on the phone with yiwen, at the toilet outside fareast and all because of her. and shit i'm tearing as i'm typing this. BUT I LOVE YOU DARLING. because we know that we've done our best and been the best CLs we could. I WILL REALLY MISS EVERYTHING I DONT KNOW WHAT TO SAY AHHH SHIT MICHELLE TAN I LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU. THANK YOU FOR BEING A CL WITH ME. THANK YOU FOR MAKING UP FOR ALL MY WEAKNESSES. THANK YOU FOR BEING SO NICE AND HUMOURING ME WHEN I'M SAD. and we KNOW we've been the best CLs ever hoho! like how i know you never tag on people's blogs but you make the effort to come and say 'i love you' once in a while. and basically for being you. the most wonderful CL partner i could ever ask her. seriously la we've gone through so much it's impossible to believe. and i'll really treasure the year of memories. I LOVE YOU and hahaa THANK YOU FOR YOUR FIRST KISS! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3!

TEHYIWEN. YIWEENNNNNN! i really don't know what i would have done without you. you know i never saw myself being so close to you. i don't know what made me call you that day last year at michelle's house. but i knew you would help. because you are TEHYIWEN. and then that sparked off the entire year's happenings. with marche's after that. and the phone calls i made to you about three times every week. thank you for reminding me of the one thing that i needed to be reminded of most. I PROMISE TO DO MY BEST. because you are such a wise person. even though i hated what you said i knew it was true. so you knew right from the start that we could never get rid of her. so you knew that i would have to go through this year with the disgusting her. so you knew. but you were different from the other YAs. because YOU CARED. or at least you were the only ones other than mel and jo who showed it to me. because when i talked to you i truly felt as if YOU CARED about whether michelle and i would really be able to survive this year. whether we would get nervous breakdowns and collapsed. whether we would be able to take rgguides to greater heights without letting the problem affect us. and truly you've taught me a lot. everytime i cry i could always call you. i'm sorry i busted your phone bill a lot. but your words mean the most to me. that's why i call you so much. because i trust you. i placed my trust in you instead of any of the other YAs because you are you. because you help us. maybe not by solving the problem, but by opening my eyes and showing me why things happen. for telling me not to cry, because it's not worth it. for being able to make me stop crying and always think of rgguides as priority. you know it was largely because of you that i didn't give up throughout the entire year. BECAUSE YOU TOLD ME NEVER TO. because you believed in me. BECAUSE YOU TOLD ME I HAD INDEED DONE MY BEST. and THANK YOU for teaching me so much. this paragraph is really an understatement. THANK YOU MISS TEH. <3 because you incorporated love into your teaching me the many things you have. especially THE MOST HATED DA JU WEI ZONG which was unfortunately so true.

MEL AND JO for being the YAs the others never were and for helping out so so much! and for helping us WITH TENDER LOVING CARE AND CONCERN (: even though you all never had to because you are not YAs officially anymore. YOU DONT KNOW HOW MUCH OUR BATCH LOVES THE TWO OF YOU. we wouldnt know what to do without the two of you! helping us with schedules, sessions, pga and everything and AA especially! THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU (:

BATCH 06. really what can i say. we had such a tough time. because no one believed in us. but we showed so much resillience and WE SUCCEEDED. and as we read in our letter to you. our success as a batch is not measured by the execution of any of our events, but by the very fact that we TRIED OUR BEST. and scattered stardusts do get blown together again and shine like the brightest star ever in the night. i'm so thankful we were in time. and we bonded (: like A LOT. and we were the pioneers of many things. and thank you everyone for your support. michelle and i would have died without you. thank you for all of you helping to do the 3rd CL's work (: and for helping us prove to everyone that we are not failures. we proved it to the guiders YAs and everyone in our own way. and to mr. rain who liked to come and disturb us a lot that we could still pull everything off. I LOVE YOU BATCH 06.

GIRAFFE <3 LOVER. rural hike and camp. the two major major events that i did with you. you know with you our combi would have been perfect. but stupid people didn't see. but it's okay. I LOVE YOU DARLING. you are one of the most capable and dedicated people i have met. and thank you for helping out whenever you could. and for listening to me. and for letting me scream into your shoulder yesterday. I LOVE YOU LOVER.

CHERYLW haha i have a lot of memories with you! FROM SAN GEN CAO to the recent addition of the silly yi ke shu! and kboxing and everything! and ri02 when we were in sec two1 CHOCOLATE COATED APPLES <3 and chickies and everything. I LOVE YOU. and haha dinner was fun ! WE MUST CONTINUE TO GO KBOX A LOT (:

ATHENA. ZHIYANG <3 you know i never thought we would become so close! but through this year i've gotten to know you a lot better and i'm thankful for that too I LOVE YOU DARLING. THANK YOU FOR HELPING TO MAKE OUR BATCH A PIONEER OF LOTS OF STUFF!

COH 07. good luck darlings you can do it! especially my sec twos okay! don't disappoint michelle and i!

DOVE LOVEY DOVEY DOVE. i'm sorry that throughout the year i didn't get to spend as much time as i would like to have with you (: but thank you for all the loving (: DOVE DOVE FEEL THE LOVE. DO ME PROUD BECKY AND VINNA and lynnette welcome to dove (: I'M GOING TO MISSS EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU (: yijun becky vinna glenys ashley gayle jiemin yuhan! <3 and now with lynnette <3!

FILZAH YILIN AIDA omg thank you for the bag i'm damn touched la! TAKE CARE OKAY. yilin you are a secretary because we believe you can do it. everything happens for a reason. and the workload will be terrible, but when you can't take it ALWAYS REMEMBER YIJUN IS HERE FOR YOU OKAY DARLING. just drop me a tag or sms/ call me! and FILZAH keep the guides room pretty okay! I ALWAYS KNEW YOU'D MAKE A GOOD QM :D

ONGLINGMIN you know when i opened the box i went omg. and as i took out the letter and saw what was underneath i went omg again. THANK YOU SOSOSOSOSOSO MUCH <3 and now hopefully you'll enjoy guides more now that she's gone! I'LL MISS YOU LOADS too but i'll always come and visit you okay! thank you for all the chocolates and candy haha you gave me more than everyone else put together! I LOVE YOU.

SEC THREES do us proud. take rgguides010203 to greater heights. we believe that you can do it okay you have a VERY STRONG COH. (: treasure your last year in guides. time passes faster than you know it for time stops for none of us okay!

SEC TWOS my beloved! you know i think throughout my term i think I LOVE YOU ALL THE MOST. because if i wasn't a CL i wouldnt have gotten to know a lot of you better! and i wouldnt have seen all of you grow and mature into such wonderful guides now. and never forget michelle and my dream for you all. CONTINUE TO SHINE OKAY DARLINGS we'll come back to visit you all <3! JIAYOU SEC TWOS <3!

SEC ONES. haha i think you all are like super la! i'm sure you all will turn out even better than the sec threes, who fyi, were really good too! because when i saw you all hold hands during the farewell concert i was so proud of you all. SO CONTINUE TO STAY TOGETHER AND BONDED AS A BATCH YOU ALL HAVE THREE YEARS MORE TO GO!

RGGUIDES YOU HAVE PERVADED AND CONSUMED MY LIFE SO MUCH I'LL MISS YOU A LOT A LOT. and i was thinking how if i joined this this this CCA, i would be like that that that now. but deep down in my heart i never regretted joining guides because i got to know so many people! it's really really much much more than just a CCA <3

and i know i missed shoutouts to a lot of people so if you want one just request for it on the tagboard la. i'm quite tired now. i've spent almost one hour typing this post and tearing has made my eyes even more tired.

I'LL MISS YOU EVERYONE.

I'M GOING TO MISS EVERYONE! ):

i shall update more when i feel like it hahaa.

BUT THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR YOUR LETTERS AND GIFTS <3.

striping is tomorrow! so fast the year has passed and i remember how eleven months ago michelle and i desperately wanted to step down haha.

and it hasn't really struck me i think it only will when i see all the dear guides tomorrow!

like in sixteen hours i'll be a cl no more!

and I'LL MISS YOU EVERYONE IN GUIDES! ESPECIALLY BATCH 06 <3!

and tomorrow i can't wait to see all the performances :D

AND SEC TWOS WE STILL HOPE YOU ALL WILL BOND OKAY DON'T LET US DOWN :D

okay i need to go off and finish my notes!

haha jacq said that at the rate i'm going when i grow up i'll be the CEO of a souvenir producing company :D haha you see how many times i have to mass produce stuff ><

haha anyway BYEE (:

I'LL MISS GUIDES ):

hmphhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. I HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE THE ***!


you know today i was feeling all sad because it was the last time we'll ever lead taps and it was the last time we would say 'GUIDES DISMISSED'.

and then that happened and now i'm not so sure about everything after all.

i think seriously the only good thing that happened to our batch was mel and jo thank god for them (:

and THANK YOU for talking to me for one and a half hours (: i think the person i have to thank most for surviving the year is you! because if not for the numerous hours you've spent on the phone with me i would have like committed suicide or something long long long long ago! haha okay maybe not. but i would have died of a nervous breakdown or something.

okay i shall remain happy. HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY and not bother about stupid annoying people hmphh who dont deserve my tears and my energy being angry over!




I SHALL BE HAPPY!




haha xinning asked me that day why i could always seem happy and i didn't know how to answer her! i've been thinking about it for a long long time haha! over a week already okay! and i think i've got the answer!

i dont think i'm always very happy or something i do get angry and pissed and upset very easily. but i guess the good thing is also that i forget stuff very easily, and i appreciate all the things around me and the little things that people do.

like how nice sweet juniors can make up for one year of suffering with *ahem* someone!

and being happy is of course better than being sad! so xinning! don't think so hard about everything! just try to stay happy all the timeee! haha and if you're unhappy just CRY and you'll soon be fine :D haha i should be the best example for that considering that i just cried finish for one and a half hours tomorrow i'm going to go to school with disgusting eyes la! ><

YUPP SO I SHALL NOT BE ANGRY ANYMORE AND IGNORE SILLY PEOPLE LIKE THEM AND STAY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY!

>< sorry i needed to convince myself!

OKAY I'M HAPPIER NOW (:

i never agreed when they called you the world's biggest bitch but now i cant help but agree. YOU SUCK.

hoho this is going to be a lovey dovey entry!

BATCH 06 i love you (: we won best performing item yesterday (: and and haha so my four hours of dance prac in the morning was all worth it (:

and SANGENCAO <3 haha it all started when cheryl wong brought michelle and i to kbox amost one and a half years ago! and haha yesterday we took our SECOND xuan chuan zhao! with giraffe and the yi ke shu

and haha JIAKANG hoho you're here now because i'm talking to you on msn haha! and haha i love you! yayy and i miss shuai guy i'm so annoyed how i keep seeing his mother and not him ):

haha and last night i was feeling all sad that striping is in like six days, now five Oo and today i opened my inbox and i found two reasons why i wont miss everything but owell, i'm sure there are about a HUNDRED other reasons why i'll miss everything!

like my batchmates, my lovely juniors, the YAs hoho >< and my darling MICHELLE TAN HUI TENG even though i think you're horrible sometimes haha! anywayy I LOVE YOU haha!

hoho i think i havent' said this is a long time I LOVE rgUGlies HAHA!


weiming and bob our dear organisers for such a fun day yesterday haha!

our wonderful legacy our first every IUGD!

and hoho it made me think about leadership camp last year and miss being with all of you all hahaa!

i think the concert rocked! even though ahem it compromised our reputation BUT IT'S OKAY IT'S ALL IN THE NAME OF GOOD FUN!

haha and we thought bob's juniors must have gone crazy swooning over her 'OMG SO MAN! :D'!

YAYY and hoho it's so weird to do this but silly lingmin you closed down your blog so i have to do this instead THANK YOU FOR THE CHOCOLATES I LOVE YOU (:

hoho striping's in a week HAVE YOU ALL BOUGHT MY PRESENTS :D!

and ohoh i share the same birthday as vanessa anne hudgens you know! so cute right omg zac and vanessa are so cute together

!

like how he picks her up and swings her around randomly haha and videos her and how they keep hugging everywhere they go OMG THEY ARE THE LOVE <3

haha and jiakang! we miss our shuai guys ):

haha today was scary! ><

it's like at like nine plus everyone was at hq with luggages and everything, and like it looked like we were going to either set up a flea market or camp overnight la. we had luggages, baskets of books, boards, laptops, printers, sewing machines everything! hahaa

and then like after we picked our task we had two hours, and it was like a mad rush la!

everyone was like flustered and like screaming when there was only twenty minutes less etc, and like the time passed REALLY quickly.

but then we had like FOUR hours of presentations after lunch la i nearly died please i had to just keep eating sweets to prevent myself from sleeping ><

but i think the testers are like super strict la i really hope we all pass, i mean we've all come this far we're just this little bit away from having tea with the president at the istana ><

but I LOVE EVERYONE OF US hoho (: i'm glad i've made so many friends through this whole thing! and then it's like as we sung taps around the trefoil on the floor today we were wondering whether it would be the last time we all sing taps together ): ><

ohwell oh yes THANK YOU EVERYONE who wished me luck/ sent smses and everything! IT WAS VERY NICE OF ALL OF YOU :D

and haha even jolyn who like drew this really gross picture haha >< to wish princess and i good luck THANK YOU :D

and i decided that i think i'm really going to miss guides!

it's like yesterday during our discussion of COH '07, haha we were all screaming and shouting at the top of our voices but I STILL LOVE YOU BATCH 06 <3 a lot a lot a lot! because i felt very batch-bondy yesterday because i think we've really been through a lot together for the past year I LOVE YOU ALL SECFOURS <3!

and like all my darling juniors <3 haha too many to name! and if i forget to name someone i'm sure she'll be jealous haha!

but i shall be nice and give a shoutout to ONGLINGMIN i love you <3 because you gave them to me the chocolates tasted extra sweet <3!

OKAY YAYY YOUTUBE TIME :D

hello haha i think today was fun (: and so was yesterday (:

NICHOLAS TAN hoho we saw him again hahaa at swim meet and then jolyn was saying he looks like a freestyle person, but i was saying i like butterfly people better haha it looks nicer in the pool! and then the announcer said 'A Div Boys, Lane 4, Nicholas Tan' HAHA AND OUR WHOLE ROW SCREAMED hahaa because everyone knows about nicholas tan from science fair haha! and so everyone spent the entire time trying to see how he looked like haha! but he won hoho i think that was probably the only time i cheered properly ahahaa! but then again we were really bored la ><

and today (: i think i like not planning schedules because i get to spend time walking around with michelle or talking to my darling juniors <3 haha I LOVE YOU ONGLINGMIN <3

haha and Oo PGA round three is this saturday haha i'm going to go to the guides house looking like a karang guni woman la! Oo haha and it's so not 'be prepared' because you know everything that's going to come out already la and you're supposed to prepare for everything so it's pretty much nothing spontaneous haha. i just hope i don't get like rap or something haha i'll be so embarassed and i'm sure i won't look cool at all >< owell!

hahaaa oh and i really like thaddeus! haha he's this eight year old little boy i play tennis with haha he's like damn cute la! <3! hahaa

cos like yesterday we were giving him a lift home after tennis, then there was this bus next to our car which had this pretty model advertising perfume or something. then he pointed to it and said : when i grow up, i want to marry a girl like that. and then my mummy asked: you mean you want to marry an ang moh girl? haha and he replied: no i want to marry a pretty girl. then he paused for a while and said: yeah, she must be pretty, cannot be ugly or fat, because i think fat girls are stupid Oo hahaa. and then he said: of course, cannot be like marcus also (marcus's his friend), marcus wants to marry a girl taller and older than him. HAHA and then he turned to me and said : yijun jiejie, mymummy says that you're my girlfriend you know!


AHAHAAA I <3 HIM hoho!

omg i can't help but say this i hate you **********. i cant wait for striping i've been looking forward to it for a year all because of you. from the day you called our three names i've been wishing for striping to come and that must be the only reason why i can't wait to step down because i dont have to see your disgusting face and read your disgusting emails and stupid lousy comments anymore you useless piece of shit.

other than that i think i'll miss everyone. and i'm glad to know that my hatred for her is not alone (:

hello haha this week has been such a short week i like!

i think they should start having 4-day work weeks from now on (:

anyway i think urban hike on wednesday was fun haha i like watching sec ones being married off every year i remember how cherylw was married off in sec one hoho (:

and anyway i like walking around orchard with princess and my mini toon gummies and bubble tea hoho!





but now haha it's three weeks more to go haha i dunno whether to feel happy or sad ><

and then i look back and see how much i hated being a CL once upon a time because of someone! haha then slowly it became more fun and now it's near the end of our term already.

and now it's you dian she bu de!

and now i bet everyone hates us for the uniform thing >< but it's the only way!

aiyah i dunno i dunno i dunno la! ah!

hello! yayy yesterday and today was fun haha yesterday we had syf then it was quite nice to watch la, and then after that i went to princess's house for our last ever guides sleepover i think!

and then it's like we talked until like two plus nearly three haha for four hours please!

and haha it's fun thinking about next year's coh :D

and anyway i just shan't bother saying much about it because i don't like reading other people blog about like politics and trying to give us 'advice' so i shan't bother saying much as well!

and then today haha we had to wake up at 6 so we had like disgusting eyebags!

and then for the whole time we just had a production chain for balloons and i was really annoyed with all the silly people who stole my balloons la by just like untying them off the staircase or something haha i glared at some people i bet they hated me haha!

but anyway today was fun because i made new friends hoho!

and it's cool seeing all the pga people again haha i <3><

and haha they told us the results for the second round haha all of us got through la!

and so we went for lunch then on impulse we decided to go to kbox :D

and the next few days are going to be fun too!

like tomorrow we're going kbox again haha i can't believe it la i don't feel like going >< yayy tomorrow's just going to be a really fun day!

then on wed it'll be URBAN HIKE :D